Josephine cannot be described as a picky eater. She is not an eater at all. About six months ago I decided not to make food a battleground, and only gave her food I knew she'd eat. But about two weeks ago her narrow window of 'acceptable' foods shrank to an impossible few. I cannot even list what she'll eat now, its too unpredictable. The last few mornings I've had to beg, plead and threaten her to eat something, anything. Finally this morning I dangled all her binkies over the trash and told her I'd throw them away if she didn't eat something for breakfast.
People, she doesn't eat candy. Its easy for outsiders to see or hear this and brush it off, say something like "Well if she's hungry, she'll eat." SHE WON'T. I'm telling you, this kid doesn't eat, and its stressing me out to an unhealthy degree.
I really thought about it today, and the reason it affects me so deeply is because of the NICU experience. I have this feeling that if she doesn't eat she may die in the hospital. Because it took the kid 6 weeks to decide that taking any form of food in her mouth was something she could do.
If she'd been born even twenty years ago, she'd have died.
So what do I do? I think binkies may have to go away for good, but they are my only leverage at all to get the kid to eat (even Lucky Charms! Coco Puffs! Suckers!). She is hungry, but she just cries through it because for whatever reason, all food tastes terrible to her.
I hate trying to feed her in front of other people, because I get comments like, "Just give it to her, she'll eat it." I've started responding rather rudely, saying "Do YOU want to pick it up off the floor? Scrape it from the walls? Wipe it out from the inside of your bra?"
I'm so sick of this battle with her. She goes to bed hungry and there's nothing I can do about it. The doctor has no advice for me.